Okay, so I was thinking about posting yesterday, but didn't feel like it. Today, Sarah is complaining that I haven't posted in a long time, so this is for her. =)

I finished up my fourth quarter of school and this last monday started on my fifth. I am beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I was able to get all my teachers except one to let me take finals early so I could go home a few days ahead which was great. Spending three weeks at home was nice. It had its moments where I wished I wasn't there and that I was back in Roseville going to school. Overall, it was a nice visit and it was really hard to leave Jacob behind after seeing him for three weeks straight. I hope he doesn't foget who I am.

Back at school this week I have five classes: Excel, Intermediate Keyboarding, Intro to Project Management, Access (Database Management), and a Composition and Research English class. I'm going to be pretty busy, but that's nothing unusual. I took my make up final for PowerPoint today and aced it with 99%! The teacher was a total ass about it and tried to make me look bad right in front of the dean. It totally pissed me off.

I have a trip home planned for the end of August. I will leave after classes end at noon on a thursday and then come back sunday with my mom and dad. They will spend the night here in Roseville then go home monday (Labot Day). I just couldn't wait to go back home until October...it seems so far off. My mom and dad are probably going to be coming up here for a weekend visit in two weeks.

I guess that's about all that's been going on...

I don't think it would be noticeable to most people, even family and close friends, but I think I have changed a lot in the past 7 months. I am not the same person that used to ask for her parents permission to go places, or have them do things for me. I am someone who want to be independent, wants to be on her own, doesn't want to answer to anyone besides herself. Even though I do have freedom, I have yet to feel completely free. In some ways, living with grandparents is worse than living with parents...at least in my case it is. I am constantly having to give reasons for leaving the house, be home by a certain time or risk being reprimanded, etc. It's ridiculous, I'm almost 24 years old and I really do believe that certain people forget that sometimes. I may be short and unable to do some physical activities without help, but I am way past the point of having to give reasons for every action I make. I know I've talked before about going back to Newark and not staying in Roseville after graduation, and I still feel that way; however, I do not want to go home to my parents house. I want to live on my own, be responsible for me and me only. I want to go to my parents house for visits, or dinner but not to live. I have come to realize how much I love home and my parents, but how much I also need to be me and be on my own. Moving to Roseville has definitely taught me a lot and overall has been a great experience that I wouldn't want to change. I never thought I would come these conclusions, but I have and I think over the next year they will only be stronger.

I can honestly say that this quarter really sucks. I hate sitting in two of my classes for 4 hours twice a week. I hate that the teachers pile all kinds of crap on you at once and expect you to be able to handle it. I hate being given study guides and then taking a test and getting a bad grade because the teacher isn't teaching the material. I am not a book learner, I have to have visuals! I am sick of people always expecting me to get A's on all my tests and then be given a look of disappointment when I don't. I am not perfect, no one is, and I wish people would realize that. When I am struggling, I simply want support. WHen I am doing well, being slightly excited for me would be nice. That cannot be too much to ask of someone, can it?

It's amazing to me how people can sit in class and do nothing but talk and go on myspace when they are paying over $20,000 for school! And then when the teacher calls on them for an opinion or answer, they stare at the teacher with a look of total panic because they have no clue whatsoever what she was even talking about because they were too busy talking to their friend and playing on myspace. People are so inconsiderate these days and it's very aggravating.

Okay, this entire entry has been me complaining about crap, but I needed to get it out because it's been building up for days now.

Today I purchased tickets to see Celine's show in Vegas for a second time. I am seeing the show on May 27th! I have fourth row tickets in seats on the end, just like I had in 2005, except this time I will be a row closer! I will be in Vegas from May 24th-29th. I may or may not miss one day of school depending on what time we choose to leave on thursday the 24th. I am so excited I almost can't even type! LOL =)

I start back to school on wednesday when I will begin my third quarter. I only have one class mondays and wednesdays and I don't go in until 9:50am. Tuesdays and thursday I go all day, 8am-2pm. It will be nice to sleep in two days a week, but it will suck to have two of classes be the length of two classes.

No news other than Vegas and school, so I guess that's all for now.

Today I completed my second quarter at Heald and I am SO relieved that it is over. This quarter just sucked! I'm not sure if it was the combination of classes, teachers, or just simply me. Even though I hated the quarter, I did manage to walk away with my second 4.0 gpa. =) On my finals I got: 100 in Word, 98 on Anatomy and Physiology, 81 on Human Resources (I was so stressed about not having an A in the class after the final) and a 94 on the English final. Overall I did really well with the finals. I was not thrilled about only getting an 81 on my HR final, but the end result was what I wanted, so I can't complain too much.

Next quarter doesn't seem to be looking very nice. My tentative schedule is up and it includes: Medical office procedures, medical billing and coding, and composition and reading. The two med classes are 6 units each! They are equivalent to two classes in length. The english class is 4 units, giving me 16 total which I am not all that happy about. I know I have to take them eventually, but it would be nice to split the two med classes so that I could take 4 classes at once instead of only 3. I was hoping to have fewer classes at the end when I will be attending school and doing an internship.


I am heading back home to Newark on saturday. It feels like I haven't been home in a long time, but I know I was just there two weeks ago and I will be there again on the 277th for my sister's baby shower. I hate going back and forth so much, but it is nice to go home and be with family.

If you've read any of my blogs you should know that my sister is pregnant and due in February. Well, today she went for her sonogram (or ultrasound, whichever it is) and found out the sex of the baby. I am going to be the proud auntie of a little boy!! Yes, I did want it to be a girl, but I am just happy that he is a healthy little baby. Now I just need to go out shopping. Who wants to come!?!? =)

The teacher for my medical terminology class is so funny. He is going to be great to have as a teacher, but the class just might kill me. It's a good thing all my other classes seem to be easy because this one is going to take a lot of my time. Luckily I do have Judy to study with, which her and I already said we might have to do.

My teacher already started making us use correct terminology. First he said that we don't go pee pee, we urinate. And then he said we don't take a shit, we leave a shit. That totally made everyone laugh. Oh, and we aren't allowed to eat or drink in the classrooms except water with a lid on it. He had a starbucks mug with a lid and just to show us he was following the rules he poured what was in his mug onto the floor! It was only water! He said he uses it as a placebo so he makes himself think he is drinking coffee, but really he isn't. This class is going to be a tough one, but having him for a teacher is going to make it so much better.

It was a pretty good day.

I had my keyboarding class at 8am, so I got there early...around 7:35am. I wanted to be sure I had a good seat and I wasn't late. The teacher seems really nice and has personality. We did lessons on how to use the keys and putting your fingers in the position, etc. It was boring and poinltess for me. In all the lessons they is a one minute timed part to see how many words you can type and how many errors you make. The goal by the end of the class is to be able to type 35 wpm with fewer than 3 errors. On my last timed lesson I did 62 wpm with no errors. It's going to be a long 11 weeks in that class.

I had software applications at 9:50am and that went fairly well. The teacher is okay, but boring to listen to. The book for the course hasn't come in so we weren't able to jump into learning anything today. That was the least fun class of the day.

I had lunch from 11:35am-12:05pm. The half hour flew by and before I knew it I was off to Business management. My one and only female teacher....she was nice, but the class seems like it could be a slight challenge, but we'll see. She jumped right into the first chapter and everything she covered I learned in either economics or government in high school, so I was kind of bored. I will for sure learn a lot in the class, but right now it's all a review for the most part (at least for me it is).

The great things about Heald is all the first quarter students have the same classes and depending on your major you pretty much have the same classes throughout the 18 months. Some of us will go off in different directins because medical people will eventually take different classes than business people. I met a really nice lady and we have all the same classes, except she has a math class that I was able to test out of. We learned that she lives literally right down the street from me (my grandparents). We are going to see if we can carpool at least twice a week because our schedules are the same on mondays and wednesdays, but she has an 8am math class tuesdays and thursdays that I don't have. Originally I was going to take the October quarter off because of my disneyland trip and the fact I would miss the first week of classes, but I am going to talk to my advisor and find out if I can arrange something with the teachers and even my new friend, Judy. If we have the same classes again next quarter she can help me catch up on what I miss the first week and maybe pick up any handouts I miss. I would hate to lose out on a good friend by missing a quarter.

So, my day went well. I am interested to see how my medical terminology class goes tomorrow. Luckily I get to sleep in a little bit later. I am already busy with homework for my business class, but thought I would take a break and let you all know how my day went. Okay...back to my homework!

My sister's wedding is this friday and it feels like it's never going to get here. I am not excited yet, but I'm sure as it gets closer I will. There is just too much to get done before friday that I don't have time to get excited. We have rehearsal and dinner on thursday night beginning at 6pm. I hope all that goes well because I don't want to be there forever.

Oh, I should update some new info....my sister is 5 weeks pregnant! I am really excited about being an Aunt. I am more excited about the baby than I am about the wedding. So much negative stuff has happened because of the wedding, so it's hard to be excited about that. I am hoping this pregnancy will bring the family together, which the wedding really didn't do.

I changed my layout, if you didn't notice. Actually, Sarah changed it for me. I am so not good with codes on this thing yet. She said she was bored anyway. =)

Hope everyone has a great week! I'll write again when the wedding is over.

Today was a great day! Sarah and Sharlene got to my house a little after 11am and we headed to Dave and Buster's for lunch and some fun and games! We really enjoyed ourselves, but it was also depressing knowing I wont see them for quite a while. I'm really glad we all got to hang out and have fun together. I hope they will come visit me like they talked about doing.

Tonight was okay. My sister was here and we did more stuff for the wedding. I tried to let her and my mom do it all, but I ended up helping a little bit. I always feel invisible whenever my sister is at the house. Everything is always about her and I feel like I may as well not be here. It's frustrating and totally pisses me off. In some respects I am glad I am moving away because I don't have to listen to my sister whine and complain when things don't go her way...but I will definitely miss some things that are here.

So, thank you to my friends for a great last hurrah!!!!

Tomorrow I am going to Dave and Buster's with Sarah and Sharlene to celebrate before I take off to Roseville for school. We are going to eat, talk and play games. It's sad to think that this is the last fun thing I have going on before I move two hours away from home and all my friends. Of course, when I come home to visit I will do my best to see them while I'm here. I'm already starting to miss home and my friends.

This blog was written because a certian friend of mine said she was bored and wanted something to read....so, hope she is happy. =)

My sister's wedding is in less than two weeks and I CANNOT wait for it to be over with!! I may go insane before then, but I'm trying to hold it together. It's hard keeping your mouth shut about things when you really want to yell and scream at people. I have less than three weeks left at home and they are going to be fairly stressful and crazy. Too much going on and I am tired of everything. Some of it will never get better, but at least by moving I can get away from some stress.

Okay, this may be short but that's all my brain can think up tonight.

Well, I finally gave in and am posting a blog on LJ instead of myspace. Sarah bugged me too much and I decided to break down and do what she she said I should. I have yet to see if LJ is better than myspace since I am still completely lost on what I'm doing and how to do it. I guess I'll figure it out eventually.

My life has been quite hectic this year. Both positive and negative things have happened to me this year and I have learned a lot about other people, and more importantly, I learned a lot about myself. People are not always who they seem to be. No matter how much you think you know someone, you really can't rely on them to stay the same forever. Sometimes people change for the better, but sometimes they change for the worse. It's hard to accept things when you know they are wrong, but it makes it even harder when you can't get people to see that they are making mistakes. People have to learn those lessons on their own, I guess. I always thought that family was something I oould count on no matter what happened in life, but I have seen over the past few months that you can't count on anyone but yourself. I know how sad that sounds, but it's pretty darn true. No offense to those who have stood by me these past few stressful months, but that's how I feel about things. It's hard and frustrating to feel like I am alone to handle everything on my own, but I have grown stronger and have become a better person that I am happy with.

My life is finally going in a better direction and I am excited about the new prospects. I start at Heald in a little over a month. I'm totally nervous about being in a new city, being away from the home I've known my entire life, being around people I don't know, starting something so new and different....the entire things scares me! But...I can't help but be completely happy and excited about it. This is a whole new start for me and I know this is the best decision I have made in my life so far.

For those of you who read this, the whole blog is probably a repeat of previous myspace blogs, but I felt like writing and had nothing else going on to talk about. All righty, I gotta jet!